10 Pounds Down!

Whoop Whoop Whoop... I lost 5 more pounds. 10 pounds down. Weigh 310 - 10 = 300 lbs.

Never did I think I would celebrate weighing 300 lbs... but I am seriously doing a happy dance...

I am almost to my first big goal. Big goal psychologically and emotionally... to get under 300 lbs... Yes I checked that scale several times... even double checked to make sure it is balanced... lol...

I looked at the pictures earlier in this album and I was under 300 lbs. All the way down to 275 lbs in one photo. At that point I was still dealing with the uncontrollable binging. Diet then binge pause repeat.

It is truly a blessing to be free of the binging. Yesterday was truly a test of that... lol. My stress levels went off the charts. I did have some cravings... of course. I also had some chips, as well as some ice cream.

Here is the difference. I had around an ounce of chips and a bit of dip rather than a couple bags of chips and a couple tubs of dip.

As for the ice cream. I had 1/2 cup of chocolate ice cream.

It is so freeing to be able to have chips or ice cream without eating myself into oblivion, and being ill afterwards.

1. Under 300 lbs is my first major goal:

2. Next is 294.5 lbs. that will equal a 15.5 lb loss. 5% of my heaviest recorded weight lost...

3. 279 lbs is my next goal: that will be 31 pounds down and 10 % of my heaviest recorded weight lost.

4. Next up is under 275 lbs. 275 lbs is the lightest I was in those pictures I'd posted earlier.

5. Next up is 263.5 lbs... 15% of my heaviest recorded wt. that will be 46.5 lbs down.

6. After that my next huge goal... or rather marker. Under 250 lbs. This one is a biggie for me. Psychologically and Emotionally this one is a HUGE one.

7. Next up: 248 lbs. 20% of my heaviest recorded weight for a loss of 62 lbs.

8. Next on the roster: 232.5 lbs. 25 % of my heaviest recorded weight for a loss of 77.5 lbs.

9. Next up 217 lbs. 30% of my heaviest recorded weight. 93 lbs down.

10. 201.5 lbs is the next one for 35% of my heaviest recorded weight gone gone gone... 108.5 lbs down.

11. Under 200 lbs is my next Huge psychological/emotional goal. It has been over 20 years since I've been under 200 lbs.

12. 186 lbs. is the next in line. That is 40% of my heaviest recorded weight. for a loss of 124 lbs.

13. 170.5 lbs is next up. 45% of my heaviest recorded weight gone gone gone... for a loss of 139.5 lbs.

14. 155 lbs is next up. That will be 50% of my heaviest recorded weight off my body for a loss of 155 lbs. Wow... this is a biggie.

15. Under 150 lbs is my next major major goal and almost to my goal weight... hubba hubba!

16. 145 lbs is my goal weight. For a loss of 165 lbs. Good by to over 53 % of my heaviest recorded weight... Yeah Baby!


Well, hmmmm... wow. There they are, incremental weight goals all the way to my goal weight. I am going to cross them off as I go along. I am writing each one on my dry erase board as I reach the one before it. After wiping that one out... love that symbolism...:)

Of course these are just numbers. Not actually that important in themselves. What they represent is what is important.

I could just go for the numbers. I've done that in the past... dropped a bunch of weight and gained it plus more right back on. Frankly I am not interested in doing that.

For me, these incremental numbers represent a change in lifestyle. A person that is stronger now, and continuing to grow stronger yet, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.

They represent freedom from what was entrapping me in layers upon layers of fat.

They represent Freedom to Live my Life.

M

August Results... September Goals

Throughout the month of August I was all over the place. I started out with a goal of working out to Turbo Jam. Much to my dismay I found that I am not yet in the physical position to do the floor workouts. I admit this rattled me.  I am going to have to slowly build endurance and strength throughout my abdominal muscles before I can do the floor exercises safely.  At this point they result in extreme muscle spasms just below and within my rib cage. This is extremely painful, and makes it very difficult to breathe as the muscles contract uncontrollably forcing the air out of my lungs. 

So change of plans. Upright exercises only.  No horizontal exercises on the floor.

My stress levels went off the charts this August as well.  Happily I did not binge. This is a good thing. Unfortunately I did blow up like a puffer fish.  There had been weight loss earlier this month. However when I weighed at the end of the month I showed no weight loss. This was one of my puffer fish days. My fingers looked like bloated sausages, feet were swelled, face swelled; and so on.  Most of the swelling has receded however I have not gotten back on the scale. I don't believe I will until the end of September.

So as far as weight goes. I had bounced up to 313 dropped down to 308 then bounced back up to 310.

I know I am building muscle. But I will admit the weight bounce, and swelling is rather daunting. 

There have been physical changes.  I can now lie on my back on my bed and not feel like I am drowning.  It's been a long time since I have been able to lie on my back without an incline.

Another positive event was being able to get out of my friend's lawn chair easily. Since my surgery in January getting out of a chair like that has been difficult to say the least. Even before the surgery it was challenging. This is a good thing, my abdominals are getting stronger.

September's Goals:

Work on improving nutrition. I've been working on this but there is definitely room for improvement.

2 a day workouts:
a.m. walk 30 minutes/turbo jam 20 minute
p.m. walk 30 minutes/cardio dvd... variety of different workouts.

keep food journal

take vitamins

log workouts on beachbody



The end of September I will weigh and measure.  I will have photos taken again as well.  Although with the amount of weight I have to lose I'm not sure how much difference it will show.  I guess time will tell the story.

Life is a journey, one day one step at a time.
Mary E. Robbins
307.788.0202

Day 10 and still at it.

Turbo Jam: Cardio Party Today... Jamming off the calories...

I feel better this morning, than I did yesterday when I got up.  Frankly yesterday morning bit the wad. Today my throat is not as swelled up. Made a mistake and had a late snack night before last.  It would seem it was reflux central even with the nexium. Acid burn in my throat and left eustachian tube.  Gargled with some peroxide and mouthwash mixed... seems to help. Took some benaydryl in case some of the swelling was allergy related. Alfalfa is in bloom again.

Did Turbo Jam 20 minute, and ab jam yesterday. Tried to do the floor part of the workout. body is not ready for that yet. started to shut down my breathing.

It seems that the muscles where the top part of that patch is attached have issues with that particular movement. I can do it standing up. Doesn't put as much stress on them. So I'll work it standing up until I build up their conditioning some more then do it on the floor.  One day one step at a time.

It is seriously nasty when they spasm and compress my lungs. Hard not to panic with the pain from the cramping... then add on the breathing restriction because they are compressing my lungs.  It's not a good thing.

I am getting results from the standing ab work. (I can feel it)  I'll keep at that and slowly move into the horizontal stuff.

I had to have the surgery to keep my guts from falling out. Now it's just dealing with the aftermath.  I'm glad the docs caught it before it got any worse. That patch reaches from my bikini line to the base of my rib cage. Someone, I can't remember who, asked me if it would stick out and show when .. actually they said if... I lose the extra fat.  I don't think it will sick out or show as it is attached under my abdominal muscles. As in between my muscles and my abdominal lining.

The surgeon stitched it in pretty good. I am still cautious of ripping it loose.  It is still healing into my muscles; It will be for at least a year.  I can lift my cast iron kettles now. I actually helped to unload the dog food last week. Doesn't sound like much, but there were 22 ... 50 pound bags to lift and empty into steel barrels.  I was cautious, and made sure I "lifted correctly" and I actually got it done without a tearing sensation, or lower back pain.  Before the surgery when I was unloading the truck, during and after, it would feel as if my guts were going to gush out; and my back would be screaming in pain.  Not any more! YaY! 

So it's step by step... day by day rebuilding my muscle strength and endurance. Using caution this time around... I do not want another of those surgeries... EVER! 

So the horizontal floor work will have to wait a bit... and I'll keep working on the vertical crunches to strengthen and build endurance... as well as burn off this fat suit.

Life is a journey, one day one step at a time.  Hey while you are stepping... don't forget to appreciate the view around you. If you look there is beauty everywhere.

Mary E. Robbins
Independent Beachbody Coach
Robbins Run Ranch