Frustrated

I'm not sure how I managed this. But I managed to gain 2 pounds this week. Bloody frustrating. Actually it's par for the course this week. Maybe I should post a fat forever blog. Fat Frustrated and Angry blog. how's that. Lousy attitude today. I was so excited about those few pounds coming off. I haven't binged either. Stress is unbelievbly high, maybe that has something to do with it. Frankly I'm to the point that .... I'm just done. Truthfully that's how I feel ... just done. Cooked, finished, over, tired of trying, giving up, there that ought to be enough frustrated negative shit to cause shockwaves across my entire life. Yes I'm upset. Yes it has to do with more than gaining 2 pounds. Although that was the straw that broke the camel's back. AAAARRRRRAAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!

Life is a journey... some trips suck... Mary E. Robbins & the Hairballs

Didn't Bounce...Yay!

I weighed in yesterday. 292 lbs. didn’t bounce. That’s a good thing. I need to look for good things today. I’m tired and achy from moving pallets and cement blocks yesterday. OUCH! On the up side continuing to move them will work off the fat and build my strength. This is a good thing.

I was going to haul more pallets and cement blocks, as well as pieces of cement for walkways today. However, the wind is blowing so hard it would flip the trailor soooooo... no hauling today.

Brrrr... it's a cold wet wind. Wouldn't be bad out except for that bloody wind. ugh. blowing so hard it's difficult to keep my feet under me.

I can feel my body tightening up. I haven't measured in a while. I don't think I'm going to until I'm down around 280 lbs. My main focus is feeling better, getting in shape. Keep working out and eating right and the fat will keep coming off. Keep working my muscles and they will get stronger and stronger. I like that. Yes I do.

Life is a journey... enjoy the trip... Mary E. Robbins & the Hairballs

Good Morning To Ya!

I'm feeling much better. Was feeling and looking pretty scary cruddy. Face swelled up...eyes all red like pissed off stoplights.. nearly swelled shut. Yes I went to the doctor. I'm already on allergy stuff... so she tried steroids and antibiotics. It hurt to close my eyes... especially my right eye... not any more. What a relief.

I stepped on the scale this morning. I had gained up to 299 lbs on my scale. He He… 7 pounds down. 292 lbs on that same scale this morning. 7 Pounds down! I’m losing fat… Good by fat… rat-a-tat-tat… Actually part of that's probably swelling going down. Frankly I don't care... it's that much less weight I have to carry around. My hands aren't swelled anymore either.

Work out routine… isometrics in the car to and from the airport. Actually that helps to keep me awake on that 400 mile commute.

Yard work, kennel work, … want to get on the elliptical, red exerciser, and get going with oxycise again. I like the way lifting weights makes me feel. No not initially but I like the results and the way it makes me feel to have my strength building again.

This has been a loooonnnngggg recovery processs… happily I can finally see and feel progress. Have a way to go… to get my body to the physically fit state I want it in. But I’m on my way.

Building the snow fences, kennel cottages, decks, running yards, … blank spot… I lost the word for the slatted shades.. I’m looking forward to trying my hand at some walkways and furniture too. It’s a productive creative workout… lol… rather than only hitting the bow-flex … don’t get me wrong… I love the bow-flex.

I bought a signature tree the other day. No the tree is not called a signature tree… by that I mean it is a tree to stand by itself in the center of the circle drive. I believe it’s an Austrian Pine… could be an Eastern Pine. I knew but forgot. I’ll check where I bought it. I love those big craggy evergreen trees…

I’m going to plant it and put a windbreak/ snow fence on the southwest and northwest side of it. As well as put a little fence around it to keep the rabbits from eating it’s bark.

Bought a few tomato and pepper plants and a couple of squash. And some landscape fabric… thank you very much. I’m not dealing with the weeds this year …not like I have before.

Junior is in his new home. Beautiful dog… wow… what a coat. I took him to the airport on Friday. He did great. It wasn’t just his coat that was beautiful… he’s a wonderful loving spirit…

I’ve been working on my main page… as well as The Arfing News… Puppy pictures going up… beautiful little hairballs… I started the great spring hair off Friday after I came home from DIA (airport) . I took a bucket of hair off of Nasty Boy with the slicker brush. Those work sooooo nice… just don’t drag it across their skin. He has a lot more hair that needs pulled… I imagine I pulled about half of what needs to come out. I think I’ll work that way… Remove what’s already loosened … leave the rest till it releases. Much easier on my happy hairballs and myself as well.

David (hubby) goes on vacation tomorrow. Dad is coming for a visit from Minnesota mid month… Gotta go run the mama hairballs… and do basic kennel chores… then jump back on this computer and work on site … RobbinsRun:Living the Dream

Life is a journey… enjoy the trip… Mary E. Robbins & the Hairballs

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