Thursday, July 03, 2008

The Day Before the Big Boom de Boom Celebration

Wow tomorrow is the big firecracker day. Boom Boom de BOOM! I think I’m actually going to go and watch a display tomorrow night. Not sure where yet. It will be the first time in 5 years that I’ve actually gone to see one.

When we still lived in town I never missed it. All I had to do was walk out the door and I had a pretty good view…lol. I have a view of several towns fireworks from out here but they are all too distant to really enjoy them.

Much better for the dogs though. Tends to scare them sensless when it goes on and on. I used to put everyone inside and turn the radios and tv’s up to help to muffle the sound.

I stepped on the scale again this morning. My weight swung up a pound or pound and a half. At any rate it was at 289 this morning.

It amazes me how much it can swing up and down from day to day. I did not binge or over eat yesterday. Unfortunately my intestines decided to torture me a bit last night. Kept me awake with frequent bathroom trips until 4 o’clock this morning. Something triggered a gastric attack. Made for a very short sleep time. I am a bit wrung out today. Puffy and groggy. Just like a bull froggy…lol…

Worked on web pages for the New Vision Forte Diet yesterday. Managed to get 2 pages put together. I don’t have the links just the way I want them but ran out of time. I should have kept working on them after that gastric attack started. But I didn’t. I was a miserable sort and was doubled over on the love seat.

Gets a bit frustrating at times. Never know what’s going to trigger a gastric attack. Who knows. One thing I do know for sure is that it’s not consistent. Other than consistently miserable and exhausting when it happens. Yes that was a bit of a whine. I am a bit pissy and whiny today. Enough of that.

Gotta do the dogs. Hungry and thirsty hairballs are calling my name. Forget hibernating, they need taken care of. Need to get some photos taken too, as well as grooming and so on and so on. Tit tat and that’s that, later.

Life is a journey…enjoy the trip.
Mary E. Robbins and the Hairballs
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Wednesday, July 02, 2008

The Day After

Good Morning… Had a decent day yesterday. After I attacked everything in sight. Yes I came out of the closet (the scale is sitting in a walk in closet) an evil b*tch from hell. Pissed off to the extreme over the weight bounce. (Yes I know better-I was still pissed)

After I got over my super troll mode the day went pretty well. Met with a friend I hadn’t gotten together with for months. Ran a few errands, took basic care of the dogs (of course) and went over to her place for a visit a few beers and dinner.

Out of curiosity I popped back on the scale this morning. Got off of it and got back on and checked it again. Mind you this is a good quality balance scale so it doesn’t vary like a bathroom scale. It has that little balance bubble on it so you can line it up accurately.

Here is the kicker. From yesterday morning to this morning my weight dropped 4.5 pounds. This morning it was 287.5 pounds. My body’s weight shifts are enough to drive me natters if I let it. Yesterday I let it. I was natters to the extreme.

Natters … Natters… Natters… that was me yesterday. No rather Natters and Pissed.

I’m not natters today. Thankfully. Lol.
My workout for today: feed and water dogs. Groom dogs. Possibly oxycise and go for a bit of a walk.

Life is a journey… enjoy the trip.
Mary E. Robbins
Robbins Run Ranch: Living the Dream With Our Pomeranians

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Boop Boop De Doop!

Wow… I got on the scale this morning. I won’t be winning any New Vision contest this week. Woof, I blew up to 292 lbs.

Gee how did that happen? Actually I know how that happened. I ate too much and didn’t get enough exercise. So what am I going to do about it?

First off I like myself. I am a beautiful woman. My husband Loves me. Tells me everyday how beautiful I am. I don’t need to be skinny to be beautiful. Wow what a brain twister that has been. He thinks my belly is wonderful. Tee Hee.

What a change in perspective, I used to run distance and weigh between 135 and 145 pounds. Here’s the kicker I thought I was both: fat and ugly. When I see pictures of myself at a that stage in my life I see a beautiful young woman now. It’s really sad how much we torture ourselves thinking we are less than others or worthless.

Each of us is a valuable creation. Each of us has our own beauty and worth. Each day is a gift. Enjoy the beauty around you and within you.

In truth, I don’t like carrying around this much weight. I have no desire to be skinny but It would be much easier to get around without carrying the equivalent of three, fifty pound bags of dog food on my body.

Here’s another truth for you. It can be quite painful carrying around that much weight. So what do I do? Some crazy diet is not going to happen. Does not work. So what does? How do I remove excess fat in a healthy manner?

Frankly I think the biggest part of doing anything is mind set. I’m not really sure where my mind is on this. I would like to be able to complete a marathon. Just to be able to physically and mentally do it. That is the whole point for me.

It would be great to be able to walk with a spring in my step rather than it being such a labor to walk. That would be great.

Frankly I look fine just the way I am. And I’ll look fine with 100 pounds less on my body.

I’d really like to do that indoor skydiving thing and I need to be under 200 pounds to do that.

I was thinking lose enough weight so my thighs don’t touch, but frankly the way I’m built I would have to be a stick figure for that to happen. At least that’s the way it seems to me. I remember my thighs rubbing at 135 lbs. Frankly there is no way other than uncontrollable illness that I’m going down under that weight. So forget the thigh thing. Phooey on it.

I would look fine with 150 pounds less on my body. I look fine now. So it’s not about Oh I’ll be beautiful when: I am already beautiful. In all my curvaceous glory.

My abundance of fluff is causing some undue wear and tear on my knees. This is true. Ironically so will training for a marathon. Or walking distance at all. I learned that every pound we carry puts four pounds of pressure on our knees. Wow, we have some phenomenal bone structure to be able to carry that weight. Woof baby.

So for every excess pound of fat I get rid of I will be removing four pounds of weight off my knees and feet. That would be a good thing.

I want to lose fat not muscle mass. So how do I do that? Not by starving myself that’s for sure. That destroys your metabolism and your body feeds more on your active muscle tissue than on fat.

Journal-write down what I eat.
Oxycise would be good. All over toning and help with my breathing as well.
Red Exerciser was whittling off my waist. So that would be good.
Elliptical would be good as well.

This is a gradual healthy change in body composition I’m looking for. I’ve made quite a bit of positive change over the past 2 years as it is. Recovering from west nile virus and a monster surgery.

As I continue to build and tone my muscle mass. I should lose inches. And eventually pounds of fat. I’m going to go more by measurements overall than weight loss for change in body composition.

On the weight loss side of it a half pound to a pound a week will be very good. I’m not looking to yo-yo. I’m looking for a life style change. Not a starve lose bounce cycle. Been there done that over and over. I’m simply not interested any more.

I am a big beautiful woman already. Now I want to physically feel better.

Life is a journey…enjoy the trip…
Mary E. Robbins and the Happy Hairballs
Robbins Run Ranch: Living the Dream with Our Pomeranians